An hour ago, I put some of my "therapy" to use. I had a simple conversation with someone we'll call "Rachel" about the way she makes me feel sometimes. I am constantly fearful that if I tell people how I really feel, that I will be rejected in one way or another. Thus, I hide my feelings and bury them so that I won't be cut out from other peoples lives. The problem with this is that I in turn end up inwardly sad or angry and the person I have those feelings about doesn't realize it because I DON'T TELL THEM.
Turns out, I'm at fault, too. So, I'm trying to make me better. It's not always easy though.
Today was such a rainy, rainy day. Ryan and I snuggled on the couch watching cartoons and it was completely blissful. I can't remember the last time let me cuddle him for even five minutes, let alone two whole hours! We always have a good time when we get together! I love that little guy!
Now, I am making a pizza for Mark and I to enjoy on this blah evening. I'm hoping for some more cuddle time tonight. Man, I sure am needy!
Wake Me Up Before You Go-Go- Wham!